My first year of college is almost over and I’m realizing many things.
One, I need structure. Two, I need a challenge. Three, I like being around people and love leading worship.
Most of all though, I have realized the joy that comes from the little things.
Coffee at a local shop made from good beans, and friendly faces.
Bike rides with friends, and stopping to look at flowers or snakes.
Mud fights with friends, and i mean absolutely getting covered in mud!
Digging holes in mexico.
Drinking Coffee to survive because of lack of sleep
Dryer sheets
Finding your favorite pen to write with.
Getting letters in the mail.
Friends coming to visit.
Getting an A on a paper you spent a lot of time on.
Wireless Internet.
The smell of Rain, but it holds off until after my classes so I don’t have to walk in it!!!!
Going to a school where personal expression is valued.
Concerts, and discovering new music every day.
Making life long friends by simply starting conversations.
Watching Disney movie marathons.
Realizing all that has been done for me.
One o’clock grill.
Finally working up the courage to play my guitar and sing so loud in my room!!
Trips to South Dakota.
Playing the Steinway at my school and rediscovering my love for piano.
Writing music.
Trying new things and discovering they are not for me.
Collegiate soccer and the excitement of improvement.
Rediscovering a lost love, and fighting to get it back. I found Hope over Christmas break in a living room talking out my confusion with friends, and now my time is spent living within that hope. Working to breathe in life from a perspective that hopes for the best in everything, and has hope because of sacrifice and love.
I want to love well, because it’s through love that I start to believe again. All the faith that was eclipsed by anger starts to show on the fringes, because love is living and things can’t help but be rearranged by it.
My life will not look like anyone else ’s, but it is mine and I am responsible for living it not fearing it and what it may bring, or where it may lead.
God is the God of hope, and peace, and relevance,and true justice but most of all love. And Although the “big questions” can cause so much doubt at the core of who I am my deep belief in these truths of God lead to deep faith in the God that created and represents all of these things. And it blows my mind, and makes me want to live!
PEACE OUT!
