Well senior year was/is definitely not what I had expected, but I’m glad it has been different because I have learned so much. I have made lifelong friends and lost some that I thought would be lifelong, realized the importance of my mom dad and sisters, coffee, books, Barnes and noble, music, and many other things(like electricity, heat, fireplaces, Internet…all due to the ice storm, and going ten days without such things haha)
School has been very easy academically this year, but I have been more challenged to use my brain as opposed to just memorizing facts.
Soccer is starting up, well it has been for a couple of months and I took some time off because my back was acting up, and although it is still giving me a lot of trouble I’m playing again which i love and is definitely made more pleasant with the help of painkillers. I am still working at whole foods, but my last day is Saturday, I am quitting to help ease the pain in my back, standing on cement doesn’t really help it all that much.
This semester is going to be so busy, spring break is coming, and high school retreat, then prom, and then I’ll be in Belize, come back and graduate, and before i know it high school will be over. It’s a bit of a scary thought, but I’m so ready! I haven’t decided where I’m going to go to college. I have thought about what I might want to major in for a long time and was really clueless, but I recently have become very interested in Nursing, I’ve been thinking about all the opportunities it would open up so I’ll be studying that wherever I end up going. I feel like, at least for now, that God is leading me to help people through Nursing, and I think that will look like me going to another country and working in a hospital in Africa owned by some good friends of my family. I have come to believe that God is very in tune with the suffering of the world, and wants desperately to fix it, and I want to be even just a small way in which he can do that. I want to help people, and be very much involved with people I think that relationships are the most important thing, and the key to life, I want to be able to offer people who are sick and feel hopeless, hope, a friend and an ear to at least listen to what they are feeling. I think sometimes the best medicine we can offer another person is just to sit with them and listen to their stories.
Things may change, but wherever the winds of time lead me, I want to be helping to bring healing to a world full of people that have seen so much pain. As for now I pray that God would guide me and open my eyes to the ways in which I can serve right where I am now!
Well that’s about all for an update on the every-day-ness of life…May God truly be the God who seeks to repair and heal the world, and we be the ones he uses to do that, and as God repairs our hearts, may our family’s and friends, and the world we find ourselves in and very much connected to, be repaired.
Matthew Said:
on March 15, 2008 at 8:59 pm
Eden Brown, this is more or less a comment on the three most recent entries. I just finished reading them, and I was nigh tearful. Heck, I was way tearful. I love your passion and am grateful for having been a part of your life for 12 years. When I read “Things Meet and End,” I couldn’t help but think about not seeing people next year that I’ve lived with for so long. We’ve discovered another flaw in private schooling: severe emotional attachment. Your dad might have told you I got put on a waiting list at MIT. That basically means there’s a 2% chance I’ll end up there…yeah. Probably not happening. Today was about me coming to grips with that fact. Thank God that I chose today to check your blog. I admire your will to help people, and as always, your taste in music (hehe). Have a great spring break.
Matthew Said:
on March 28, 2008 at 10:25 pm
I know i’m like double commenting on the same post, but whatever. I just wanted to say that I know how it feels to know nothing about what’s gonna happen next. I mean, how do you think I felt during the whole waiting for an MIT decision process? I was terrified, and it wasn’t that I might not get in. It was that I had to wait. I hate waiting. I know that your confusion is a bit different than mine was, but I think you’ll learn to handle it. Maybe the safe route IS for you. Maybe it ISN’T. The problem with God is the human box we put him in, so don’t expect him to work out answers like you are used to seeing. I mean, God’s answer for me was “Wait…some more.” In waiting, he’s shown me the right decision. I may not even stay on the MIT waiting list I’m almost that sure, but that confidence took a lot of time. I mean, decisions like this take time and prayer, however corny or cliche that sounds. And if anyone knows what God’s odd ways are, then you do. I mean, through your series of pains, he’s worked. Through things neither He, nor I, nor you wanted to happen, he’s made you a better person. So through some unnecessary (or necessary, depending on your viewpoint) discomfort, you might just learn something that will change your mind about your future forever. You’ll do fine, Eden, whatever happens. I promise.