Eden’s Garden

…to be what? 
Do we ever really ever find out who we are?  I mean we know what to be in certain situations. For example, when you have a friend that goes through a huge trauma, you know to comfort, or when your sister gets a promotion you celebrate.  We know what kind of person we need to be in these situations, but what’s interesting to me is that the more we spend time being the situational versions of ourselves the furthur away we get from being who we are.  And who are we?  I don’t know…maybe thats the journey of life, finding out who we are.  I’ve heard my whole life that I need to find out who I am first, before I do anything in my life.  I’ve come to hate this teaching.  I have tried to find out exactly who I am and I don’t really know what that is. It has frustrated me, because I’ve brought my life to a screeching hault to pinpoint my identity.  I have decided that there is not enough time for this, and that at the core of who i am this one thing I have found.  I am living.  I am alive and living things need to keep moving.  Who I am envolves waking up, building things, creating, and loving.  There is nothing that should keep me from this.
When I find myself in a place where I no longer want these things I have denied myself its true identity.  Just some christmas day ramblings from me. 
I am preparing for an adventure.  This adventure will be with the people I love the most, and I hope to clear my mind.  So see you after a while.