…to be what?
Do we ever really ever find out who we are? I mean we know what to be in certain situations. For example, when you have a friend that goes through a huge trauma, you know to comfort, or when your sister gets a promotion you celebrate. We know what kind of person we need to be in these situations, but what’s interesting to me is that the more we spend time being the situational versions of ourselves the furthur away we get from being who we are. And who are we? I don’t know…maybe thats the journey of life, finding out who we are. I’ve heard my whole life that I need to find out who I am first, before I do anything in my life. I’ve come to hate this teaching. I have tried to find out exactly who I am and I don’t really know what that is. It has frustrated me, because I’ve brought my life to a screeching hault to pinpoint my identity. I have decided that there is not enough time for this, and that at the core of who i am this one thing I have found. I am living. I am alive and living things need to keep moving. Who I am envolves waking up, building things, creating, and loving. There is nothing that should keep me from this.
When I find myself in a place where I no longer want these things I have denied myself its true identity. Just some christmas day ramblings from me.
I am preparing for an adventure. This adventure will be with the people I love the most, and I hope to clear my mind. So see you after a while.
Archive for December, 2007
Tis The Season…
ICE STORM
Well Oklahoma has been hit hard, and as I sit here in barnes and noble, along with many other people without electricity, i’m so thankful that my family is unharmed. There was a major ice storm in Oklahoma, and it coated the limbs of the trees with about an inch of ice which caused them to be so heavy. The freezing rain continued to fall, and the limbs got heavier until they began snapping causing powerlines to break and transformers to blow. We were sitting without electricity on sunday morning at 7, we’re always the first in Tulsa to loose electricity. Our neighborhood has many huge trees its an old neighborhood, and in our front yard is an enormous water oak. So sunday night we had a fire going and we all went to bed. My parents woke up atabout 340 because a limb fell and landed ontop of the house over their room. They began to discuss what to do, when a limb about a foot in diameter snapped and fell in our front yard….at this point we decided it wasn’t safe to be at home anymore and we left. As we were leaving we saw a loose wire sparking and lighting up my neighbors back yard. We drove over to my grammy’s house which had electricity and smaller trees making it safer. you could stand out on the porch and hear branches snapping and falling all around you. every few minutes a branch would snap and fall….it was dangerous to be outside. i have never been so afraid to walk outside. The branches were just too heavy. well the worst of it is over today and the majority of the City is without power, its hard to find gas stations…and everyone seems to congregate at paneras, barnes and noble, starbucks and other places where wireless is available…well thats all just thought I’d update on the wild weather here. Hopefully things get back to normal soon.
